I have to admit, I've had a hard time with this post. I don't want it to become a sob story; although we didn't get the happy end we were hoping for, our lives were extremely blessed and positively impacted by this experience.
Exactly 2 years ago yesterday, our family had the privilege of welcoming a very special foster child into our home. We called her "Kenna." For a very long time, our family had been wanting another child to join us and Kenna seemed to be the perfect fit. Bronson and Jefferson had a little one they could tease and play with, Krissia finally had the sister she'd been longing for, Del had another girl he could spoil, and I had a baby I could cuddle in my waiting arms. The possibility of adopting her was very thrilling for us.
Kenna came with some special issues due to meth exposure, but her determination helped her overcome many of these problems during her time with us. What a wonder it was to witness her transformation and realize that each one of us has so much potential waiting to surface, if only we are surround by a loving network of support! Kenna's resiliency constantly amazed us and inspired each member of our family to become a better person.
Although unable to express even her most basic needs when we first got her (due to neglect), Kenna was an extremely bright little girl. She had an exceptional memory, and memorized the actions to songs like "Pat-a-Cake" after doing it only once. She was fascinating by books and loved to turn the pages and could point at pictures by request. It didn't take us long to cherish her incredible smile framed by luscious lips and deep dimples. This smile would also make her eyes sparkle, transforming her entire face.
Some of my favorite memories of Kenna include watching her dance and march around to music, listening to her "tattle" on other members of the family, seeing her delightful smile followed by her head-to-toe belly laugh, the times we spent swimming, and especially watching her interact with Krissia. The two of them formed a very close relationship, and I know that neither will forget her "special" sister anytime soon.
When we learned we had to say goodbye to this wonderful little girl, it was almost more than our family could bear. Kenna had carved out such an important place in our hearts, one that still aches today. Yet, if we could, we would choose to do it all over again - even knowing that we would ultimately lose her in the end. Our family is so much closer, stronger, and more compassionate for this experience and we are forever grateful for the privilege we've had of getting to know, help, and love this remarkable little girl.
We miss you so much, Kenna! We love you and pray everyday for your happiness and well being.
6 comments:
Thanks for sharing that Kim. I learned of all this through Nicole and was so touched with the experience.
I could just cry for your loss Kim, as well as for your joy!
I am glad that you had Kenna for even the brief time that she was with you.
Reading this entry, made me tear up. I too became close to Kenna, though not nearly like your family. Colin would get excited to go to Grandma's when he found out "Kenna" would be there, and even asked about her being there after she left your home. Cooper, also, took her under his wing, and has not forgotten her.
It was hard for me to read this as well.... Because I lived with you guys during that time, I was there from day one and was able to witness all the positive changes that took place with Kenna in your home. We all miss her very much and always will!! What a special little girl, and what amazing strength your whole family has shown through all this!! I love you guys!!
I think everyone who met Kenna with remember her and miss her. She was an adorable little girl who made a big impact on our families lives.
It's great that you are able to share such an experience with us even though it may not be easy. I believe all can feel a glimse of your joy and sorrow when hearing your story. She's was a part of your family and therefore a part of ours. We all miss her.
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